I Knew, But I Didn’t Know

I woke up today and realized, she’s not coming home.

The weight hit me like a million stones straight to the gut of a bleeding heart. I know. I’ve always known. This one’s for my Sister.


It wasn’t…
That I didn’t know.

But I didn’t.

I knew she had a problem.
I knew.

But I didn’t know.

It wasn’t…
That I didn’t love her.

But I didn’t tell her.

She knew.
But she didn’t know.

It was…
That I loved her so much,

I accepted her pain,
Because I knew.

But I didn’t know.

And I carried my own pain, too.
She knew.

But she didn’t know.

It wasn’t…
Addiction that killed her.

I knew.
But they didn’t know.

They still don’t.

It was…
The weight of a heavy heart.

She knew.

I knew.

I knew.
But I didn’t know.

2016 © Uncommon Graces


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Charla Nicole Cheatwood 4/17/1984 -2/26/2015
Suicide Prevention
*If you or someone you know feels hopeless, please call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text 741741. There is hope.

 

 

 

 

 

 

One thought on “I Knew, But I Didn’t Know

  1. I too made a mistake believing that because Jaie’s siblings came to me for advice and support, that Jaie would have also 😢💔😢.
    If he had only said one thing to me about his fears and concerns I could have told him that he was never alone with them 😓
    Big hugs Grace ❤️❤️❤️

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